I was doing so well. I don't know what happened...
Why am I getting so angry? What happened to my patience, my tolerance, my motivation? Yesterday was horrible. I don't want to have another break down like that again. I hate that. Why can't I just get fixed, permanently?
Friday, May 8, 2009
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
The beginning
Well, here I am again, blogging online. Hopefully I can keep up with it this time.
The reason I decided to start a separate blog is that I have so many accounts in places, and people are used to seeing me in those places, but not everyone I know who would be interested in reading my blog is in the same place. So, voila.
A lot of my reason for wanting to blog again is that, I've gone through so many changes since the last time I was an active blogger. As the title of the blog lists, I have taken on a couple new roles lately. There's a lot going on and since we're in a different country, I don't have as many outlets to express my feelings. Plus, blogging is a great way to vent, and to be able to look back on how things were.
That said, I guess I'll get started.
So, January 22, 2009 was when my son was born. I've gone through a lot of ups and downs with this new addition to my life, and that's actually what started my wanting to blog. I've had some problems with depression and I know that writing can help. However, I'm on an anti-depressant, and things are actually going really well now. I'm enjoying the time I spend with my son, I'm motivated to do things like (don't laugh) clean the house, organize, exercise... basically, to finally get off my butt, which I was spending a lot of time on during the pregnancy and for the first couple months after. Now I know what you're thinking - "Yes, but you just had a baby. You're supposed to be resting." Well that may be true, but there's a certain point you pass when just resting becomes being lazy and unmotivated to do ANYthing. So anyway, I'm doing stuff now and I just feel GREAT. I really love being a mother now, spending time with my baby boy who is just so cute and so little and I just love him so much, my little booga bear! Ahem. Sorry, it's hard not to do baby talk when I think of him.
And the exercising is definitely a good thing for me. I mean, of course it makes me healthy and all that, but I'm FEELING better too, and I can't wait to start losing pants sizes so I can start fitting back into my cute clothes and stop wearing maternity clothes!!! Although, once I start dropping some pounds, I'd like to get some sexy Italian clothes so I can fit in a little better.
Anyway, my precious little one is up and I just put him in his Baby Einstein bouncer and he's being too cute for me to keep writing and not play with him, so I guess I'm done with this first entry, but hopefully this won't be a lost cause.
The reason I decided to start a separate blog is that I have so many accounts in places, and people are used to seeing me in those places, but not everyone I know who would be interested in reading my blog is in the same place. So, voila.
A lot of my reason for wanting to blog again is that, I've gone through so many changes since the last time I was an active blogger. As the title of the blog lists, I have taken on a couple new roles lately. There's a lot going on and since we're in a different country, I don't have as many outlets to express my feelings. Plus, blogging is a great way to vent, and to be able to look back on how things were.
That said, I guess I'll get started.
So, January 22, 2009 was when my son was born. I've gone through a lot of ups and downs with this new addition to my life, and that's actually what started my wanting to blog. I've had some problems with depression and I know that writing can help. However, I'm on an anti-depressant, and things are actually going really well now. I'm enjoying the time I spend with my son, I'm motivated to do things like (don't laugh) clean the house, organize, exercise... basically, to finally get off my butt, which I was spending a lot of time on during the pregnancy and for the first couple months after. Now I know what you're thinking - "Yes, but you just had a baby. You're supposed to be resting." Well that may be true, but there's a certain point you pass when just resting becomes being lazy and unmotivated to do ANYthing. So anyway, I'm doing stuff now and I just feel GREAT. I really love being a mother now, spending time with my baby boy who is just so cute and so little and I just love him so much, my little booga bear! Ahem. Sorry, it's hard not to do baby talk when I think of him.
And the exercising is definitely a good thing for me. I mean, of course it makes me healthy and all that, but I'm FEELING better too, and I can't wait to start losing pants sizes so I can start fitting back into my cute clothes and stop wearing maternity clothes!!! Although, once I start dropping some pounds, I'd like to get some sexy Italian clothes so I can fit in a little better.
Anyway, my precious little one is up and I just put him in his Baby Einstein bouncer and he's being too cute for me to keep writing and not play with him, so I guess I'm done with this first entry, but hopefully this won't be a lost cause.
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